(it means) Freedom Union

It was my sit this morning at 7 that reminded me that I didn’t do a sit yesterday (or a journal for that matter, so yesterday’s journal was written this morning). Felt myself getting pulled out of the present away from my breath, or body, or thoughts, and then came back. Felt myself getting pulled out again with feelings of guilt. Then reminded myself that it wasn’t useful. Then came back. This went on like this for about 17 minutes. Maybe the last 3 minutes were focused. During the sit I worked through the 7th exercise and tried the body scan - kept coming in and out of it, like a patient in a ICU coming in out of a coma. Sometimes it feels like I am only truly awake for a few moments at a time through the day. Sigh.